habit

its the last day. chantal left this morning, and frankly...its time to go home. not that i dont love the ocean and the sand and the siestas in the hammock. i do. but i miss mac and eevee and after being surrounded by this entire network of other peoples friends and families, id kind of like to get back with my own.

all the people i got along best with have left over the last two days, so my comfort level isnt at its high. right now im at the internet place again because i needed to avoid the midday sun...its killer over here, and yesterday my back and chest areas got a little pinker than they should have and i gots noone to apply sunblock to my back. i also want to see about scoring a hammock for my pad, and picking up some doodads. and having a day on my own. woo.

the wedding...well, i can write this all up when i get home...but man, it was gorgeous. i barely know these people and still i almost cried like 4 times. it was just so honest and beautiful and just really them. the groom's face was beaming with love and he cried a bunch of times. he couldnt look away from the bride. it was something else. i took a ton of pictures...so maybe i can find a way to get them up here. it was like watching people's dreams come true. you dont get to see that too often.

the 'resort' im at has a turtle conservation program going, and this morning one batch of turtles (batch of turtles? squad? troop?) were hatched. they are so fucking cute and tiny....and tonight we all get to watch them get released to the sea. i cant wait. unfortunately we were told that only one per batch actually survives to become a big ol sea turtle (someone did a night scuba dive last night and saw a turtle that supposedly was bigger than the table i ate breakfast at....which was BIG) because right now they are the size of bite sized snacks. such is nature, i suppose.

ive seen pelicans and crabs and yesterday we went out in a kayak on the open sea. chantal was hoping to see a shark (i almost killed her...she's in the back of the kayak going 'here sharky sharky') but we didnt actually see anything. what a workout though. we saw two small turtles floating in the waves, and tons of little geckos share the bathrooms with us. theres a rumor of a big ass iguana around the other bathrooms that are closer to jungle, but i aint been chillin round those parts at all.

sitting in the air conditioning just makes me want to close my eyes and sleep. the tent does get these awesome breezes at night going through it...its never too hot in there. as soon as the sun sets there is wind and one night we had rain. i was convinced that there was gonna be an early hurricane season (i am the queen of the worst case scenario after all) but it lasted only about 5 minutes.

its strange to be using a computer. time has gone very slowly here, so things that i did on monday feel like weeks and weeks ago. being totally disconnected does that to a person i guess. i was thinking today how when my dad picks me up at the airport the car will have the news on, and mirrors, and other cars on the highway and air conditioning and its just gonna be this big shock. although i suppose being around all new faces on the airplane and having a movie might take care of all that. i wonder if it will feel strange to be home or if i'll slip right back into the whole what time is it/how do i look/gotta call xxx/whats on tv mode.

as for tv, ive now been going to sleep for a week straight without it. i think when i get home im going to give a full ditch effort into sleeping...get ready for it...in my actual bed! imagine that. my back is feeling really good (apart from the sunburn) and i dont want to mess that up. besides, alex said please please. =)

so i think its time to check out the deal with my precious expos. last i knew we were second place back by about 6 and about to face the dreaded braves. ay carumba, what news awaits me?

take care y'all. im excited to catch up with all of you.

--if you like pina coladas and getting caught in the rain--

hasta manana. =)

ps--happy canada day!

pps--sher, can you email socks the link to my journal telling him if he wants a mexico update he can find one there? gracias.

and thats it. party on, dude.

ola amigo/as!

lol!!

chantal and i managed to spot an internet cafe where its 15 pesos by the hour. you cannot believe how hot it is in the sun here, so the air conditioning was impossible to resist.

we are in playa del carmen for the afternoon...we walked here along the beach about 6 or 7 miles stopping twice for swim breaks in the most incredibly clear turquoise water that was so beautiful....the nicest ive ever been in, save maybe bermuda. when i swam out a bit i thought ¨i dont deserve this¨ and i dont, but i am appreciating every second. its pretty incredible.

why arent any of you on IM!

the flight was awesome, easy as pie and i sat next to a couple married the night before. it was only three hours and 38 minutes and it went smooth as a baby bottom. and i didnt cry for the take off OR the landing. im getting better.

where im staying is a trip and a half. no power anywhere at all, period. good thing i brought my hair dryer. no need for shoes, period. and the part thats affected me the most: no mirrors. no mirrors. you cant imagine how absolutely liberating no mirrors is in a bathing suit situation. i feel completely free and in full i could care less mode, and its immensely relaxing.

i feel like ive been here a week, and its been a day. the pace is slow. really slow. today i woke up and did some laps in the pool and then had breakfast which was mango and pineapple and jalápeno scrambled eggs and black beans. then it was off for the walk. when the sun goes down (gorgeous) chantal and i will walk because its cooler and then there are cocktails before dinner. torches are lit all around and we eat by candlelight. the bathrooms are candlelit as well, as are the tents. its a good thing i brought my flashlights.

the people staying for the wedding are pretty nice and i really enjoy talking with some of them, but others, who still while being nice, are kind of dorky and big into the whole marriage trip which i cant get down with. but chantal sees it too so we can laugh about it after and its not so bad. after all, dorks are people too. =)

the food has been pretty killer and there is all i can drink...i just go and take what i want from soda to corona to agua purificada. during cocktail hour the staff make special drinks and the one pina colada i had last night was enough to make me feel tanked. its been one day and the sun has already done a number on me. but im wearing 30 sunblock and being smart. only a touch of burn here and there. all good.

swinging in the hammock is becoming a fast favorite. and i just saw a little book with 30 mayan hammock sex positions. no, i did not buy it. but it must be a hot seller, there were only two left. =)

the tents are in the shade and pretty cool, thankfully. last night i slept restlessly...it was windy and it sounded like a damn hurricane outside, but it was only the palm leaves blowing in the wind. hopefully tonight i sleep better. after dinner tonight is some trivia game which could be fun unless its all inside jokes, in which case i{ll likely just hang back or something.

the staff at the hotel all know my name so say hi to me wherever. they want us to feel at home and they do a good job. chantal and i have the closest tent to both the bathrooms and the food. nice.

tomorrow i want to get to cancun because theres a market there with local crafts stuff and bartering. at the resort we are pretty isolated, which is amazing...but id like some action too. then wednesday we have a trip to mayan ruins (unless its crazy spensive) and thurs is the wedding. i imagine i{ll come home rather tan because theres not much else to do besides swim around the tents. oh...snorkeling! and theres a masseuse. im in for a one hour massage...hopefully manana.

ok chantal is done and its time for siesta, to quote my sisterfriend madonna. gotta cab back to being in hiding.

take care all....hasta la vista.

xoxooxoxooxoxooxo

--no longer overwhelmed and it seems so fucking simple now--